4 days

A personal editorial project for BabyLoss Awareness week depicting the days between finding out my daughter had died and giving birth to her four days later. I have always enjoyed illustrating challenging and emotional subjects -finding ways to depict raw feelings in a real and sensitive manner.

1. I knew she had died before they told us. I just had to wait for those words to be said out loud ‘we’re sorry but we can’t find a heartbeat’

2. I just felt so blank

3. They gave me a pill to start the induction off. Although she’d died. I could sometimes still feel her move

4.  Everywhere I looked, there were babies

5. She was born looking like a perfect little baby four days after she’d died – this was not how it was meant to be

6. I always imagine her as a little blackbird keeping watch over us all now.